luv it.

this song is really nice. i’ve just heard it today and i luv it.

the pianist plays really well and the piano sounds nice.

 

play to listen.

 

INUYASHA-TO LOVE’S END

 

why ridiculousME?

 

below are the reasons why:

1. i don’t really know how to mingle with people well. stupid nadia!

2. since i am so obsessed with piano, all i can talk is about piano.

3. i’ve only been to the beach once and that was with yana at TC.

4. i used to imagine myself living in england (i am such a great daydreamer). i watched harry potter over and over again to acquire the accent. (i have even memorised the dialogues in the movies!)

5. i hate the idea of having to go to BTN before graduating. i don’t like camping and anything that’s related to it.

6. i don’t like schoolwork because i don’t like other people forcing me to do things. let me initiate my own learning.

7. i like to listen to songs and watch movies that i like over and over again. my dad once said i was crazy because i watched LOTR for the ???th times.

8. today i found out that i was correct about the meaning of rachmaninoff’s concerto no.2 mov 1. i told yana a few weeks ago about my opinion and this morning, i searched the internet and voila! I was right. it was indeed about a doctor helping rachmaninoff get out of his depressed state and the factor that causes his depression and confusion was because of a woman. the websites said that he wanted to marry his cousin but it was against the church’s principle at the time.See??? it was about a woman. even yana said that i listened to “lagu psycho”..

i bet that people are scared of me. people think that i am serious and studious but no, i am silly and lazy just like you. i do whatever i like whenever i want.

i don’t know why i write this post. maybe i have never exactly revealed the silly me. that’s probably because i am lacking in social skills. FYI, i wanted to name my blog sillyME but there was already another blog using the name that i wanted. That’s why i chose ridiculousME because that’s the closest to sillyME-because i really am silly and ridiculous.

alright. enough with the intermission. time to do research proposal!

benkyo oshimasho!

For a breathing space

The poem below is related to my daily activities during the previous semester break:

Wake up, keyboard practice, take a nap, wake up again, breakfast, keyboard practice, lunch, keyboard practice/read novels/write poems, dinner, keyboard practice, sleep again.

 

“What a dull life to live,” said some people but I enjoyed it. If you notice, I wrote “keyboard practice” 4 times , or in other words, I practised playing the keyboard like the whole day. Reading the notes were quite difficult and up until now, I’m still slow in reading the notes. Previously, I prefer to play the keyboard by ear and my physical ability was limited to only the right hand. There was no harmony when I played songs on the keyboard. But now I can play both hands though it took time for me to master a song. And due to my constant effort, I managed to begin my first piano lesson with Grade 2 and just last week, I’ve finished learning “Winter Sonata: From the beginning until now” . I do not have the intention to brag about what I’ve achieved but I just want those people out there who are almost giving up on the things that they are very passionate doing not to give up. This is my principle, once you’ve determined to do something, you’ll gain the profit although it may take ages for it to come through. (This post is also a reminder to myself.)

 

During the holidays too that I found poetry is an interesting art of expressing oneself. I wrote quite a number of poems that I decide to publish them from time to time like the one below.

 

For a breathing space

I have taken a long break

for a breathing space.

I know I may no longer be the same.

I know that I may have changed

maybe not much; just a little bit of

this and that

here and there.

People may be left awestruck

by the tiny changes;

or people may be left dumbstruck

for they hate the changes.

I won’t mind

as to me

the changes are forward steps

and I

revel in progression and improvement. 

 

That’s all for today. Hope that this post helps people get inspired.

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala………..

What is happening to me?

I’m unorganised.

I don’t pay attention in class.

I play keyboard all the time like I’m a Music student.

I feel like I’m still on raya holiday.

Only do things that I like.

Procrastination is now my best friend.

I keep putting off doing my assignments.

“Responsibility” is now absent. 

Hmph…

I can’t wait for the sem to end.

Cuz my head isn’t attached to my body anymore.

I need a break!

It was a long wait.

It was a long wait.

I was patient,

patient enough to

tolerate the total eagerness

for earning something

that is

by and large

to be disposed of

by many a lucky person.

 

Peradventure,

the long patience

determines the value

of that worthy a thing.

 

This poem was written during the holiday. That worthy a thing is actually “a piano”. I have longed to own a piano for a very long time and only last month I finally got it. A gift from my father’s friend who happened to be a pianist. He was amazed by my determination and deep interest to learn the piano. Thank you Uncle Patrick!

Tomorrow, I will go for my first piano lesson while yana with her first classical guitar class. We are so excited to further uncover the beauty of music!

Purple

Purple.

What does it signify?

Each time I listen to the

cry of the soul,

I see it purple.

Yes, purple is the colour.

I wonder why it isn’t grey.

I guess purple is more befitting.

 

The purple cry makes my heart feels strange;

It is neither happy nor sad.

It is a combination of both.

I see the purple soul as survival

and so, the one who cries it is a survivor

who endures hardships and pains that

only he knows.

 

 

*this poem was inspired by the song Konayuki by Remioromen. I don’t know why but I see Konayuki as purple. Below is the video of the song.

 

 

 

Lu Xun!

 

Me and yana have been playing Dynasty Warriors 6 every day for the past 2 weeks. Now, I’m at home, and am beginning to miss our battles. Yana likes to change warriors but I like to stick to the one and only, Lu Xun. So, this post is for DW6 and Lu Xun fans! I really can’t wait to go back to Shah Alam tomorrow.  FYI, I have even downloaded DW6 soundtrack “spring of the east” yesterday and some Lu Xun wallpapers. Gosh, you guys must think that I am a freak! Whatever! I don’t mind. 

Below is Dynasty Warriors’ soundtrack “Spring of the East”. I really like the song. It gives me hope each time I listen to it. Hope you like it.

 

A Learner…

The excerpts below are taken from the book “Paradoxes of Learning” by Peter Jarvis. I am currently reading this book for my research proposal and I feel that it is my duty to inform others of the knowledge that I’ve found. I don’t know why but lately, I feel that I am becoming more and more philosophical that I feel like I want to further my studies in Educational Philosophies. I don’t feel like taking Masters in Phonetics anymore. It is just too technical. I want something that’s subjective and makes me and others more human as we grow.

 

Hope you won’t get bored with the info.

 

 

Rogers (1969, p. 295) describes his ideal learner:

 

…; a person who is ever changing, ever developing, always discovering himself and the newness in himself in each succeeding moment in time.”

 

Dadaist position:

 

“authenticity lies in changing constantly and acting freely and unpredictably.”

 

Peters (1972,1977) describes the educated person:

(a) The educated man is not one who merely possesses specialized skills. He may possess such specific know-how but he certainly also possesses a considerable body of knowledge together with understanding. He has a developed capacity to reason, to justify his beliefs and conduct. He knows the reason why of things as well as certain things are the case [sic]. This is not a matter of just being knowledgeable; for the understanding of the educated person transforms how he sees things. It makes a difference in the level of life which he enjoys; for he has a backing for his beliefs and conduct and organizes his experience in terms of systematic conceptual schemes.  

 

Authentic learners:

are actors who are able to conform or to innovate, to criticize or to create, to act independently or in tandem with others, depending on the situation-but always with the end in mind of helping others develop their humanity.

 

 

 

Daylight.

White on white

So pure, so bright

You light up.

 

By,

Nadia MDG

Veiled.

Truth is masked. Flaws are concealed.

Uncertainty befogs the mind.

Clues are misleading.

So blurry! So bleary!

 

By,

Nadia MDG